A few weeks ago I felt like I was coming back to life now it feels like I’m suffocating. I want to throw up all my meals. I dont want to fill myself up with anything anymore. I want to be less. I want to be stronger so I don’t constantly feel inadequate to everybody elses perceived success. I don’t want to be sad again. I will not be sad again. I dont want to be a burden again. I dont want to keep everything inside again.