Sometimes , when I need it , I take pity on myself.
Just a little bit . And there’s nothing wrong with that.
And I can only encourage you to do the same.
Not to the point of drowning yourself in it , but valuing your feelings.
For me , it’s accepting that I feel a lot . I get emotionally involved in the tiniest of affairs . And the worst thing is , that I am more than conscious about it.
I have started to surround myself with people that don’t disturb me , and I have become very selectively social. So the people I spend time with are the one’s I deeply cherish and have a clear interest to talk to.
But not all conversations and situations are in our control , so when bad things occur , a rude conversation , an uncomfortable situation , my mind starts running wild . Thinking : was this my fault ? Should I have reacted differently ?
My body is overwhelmed by my emotions and from time to time I wish I didn’t feel that much because often I feel as if it is too much .
Do you ever feel so confused , angry , disappointed , jumping to conclusions , mind racing , with your heart beat rising , feeling so much at once it becomes hard to breathe , to think ?
I try to avoid these situations if I can. Sometimes they are, though , necessary for my personal growth and it’s possible that I stand there with my hands shaking stomach hurting , stuttering loudly but doing what I have to do because I know I can , and that it will be over .
Sometimes I hate myself for it . I wish I had it easier. I wish I wouldn’t have to do breathing exercises so that I can go to bed , do positive mantras and visualisation , in general ,taking so much care of my mental state hoping it will make me more confident .
But then I know I’m not the only one getting anxiety , being scared or shy .
My best tip to conquer is to focus .
The best way out is always through.