They say self-awareness is the first step , so that’s what I’m doing .
Unapologetically me . That’s what is me , without excuses , without big explanations. That’s the way I act , the way I feel and the way I see the world just because I am me .
Unapologetically me , that’s me getting jealous . That is me getting a tight feeling in my chest wishing that other person would be me , sometimes even doubting myself and criticising my own abilities to create . Jealousy that inspires me to get better and create something beautiful I love . And even if that jealousy makes me feel worthless from time to time , it passes and leaves me with admiration and usually also affection .
Unapologetically me , that’s me being nervous and insecure wishing I was the opposite . Me being a perfectionist in certain situations in life has me overthinking and over checking in the fear of failing .Because unapologetically me as I am , I can’t listen to a random song if it doesn’t fit my mood , I can’t watch a random movie in fear I might not like it and waste my time . ( I just looked into 7 movies and it’s frustrating)
Unapologetically me , I have found out more and less when I can’t handle something and prioritise myself to ensure my well-being but I also keep holding on to friendships , where the absolute absence of that person would contribute more to my happiness than their presence. But that’s just me , and as hard as I try to let go , I will always be the one to call first , to apologise and to start the conversation after a fight.
Unapologetically me as I am I always try to see the good side in people and the positive outcome of a bad situation when others have already given up . And it really made me stop complaining , and made me aware of how exhausting it can be , to always complain.
Unapologetically me , I stick with my principles and my priorities . Unapologetically me,I won’t be ashamed of something I did out of love a few years ago , even if I wouldn’t act the same way today . I will stand up for what is right in my eyes in front of people that won’t even care or listen , but I still do it , and I will keep confronting people with injustice they do .
Unapologetically me , I try, to be honest before being almost everything else . Honesty , truth , clearness and I have come a long way together . Especially in relationships and friendships, it is one of my most valued achievements I would say and I hope that I will always hold on to that .
Unapologetically me , that’s wanting to know exactly what people thing about me , but only from those who matter , it’s me learning not to give a heck about things and people that aren’t worth worrying about ( I said learning !! ) , it’s me freaking out deep inside about talking in front of the class until it’s done , and it’s me making life plans with my best friend , sitting in a blanket fort , at 8 am eating chocolate pancakes.
Now I am off to being me , and I will leave you with a dramatic but very basic quote so we can all start well into the day .
Never regret anything you do , because in the end , it makes you who you are .