Hello everybody , yes I am alive .
I feel pretty sad for not putting up any content in the last few weeks , but I’ve been putting school and my grades first (except for my health ofc) for that time .
Today is my last exam and after a very important and successful day yesterday ,suddenly all of the stress is falling off me , leaving me without the energy of adrenaline and fear . So when I woke up feeling exhausted , I decided to give myself a few more hours of sleep and go to school later , to take my exam.
What I want to talk about today is introvertism . If you aren’t familiar with the terms introvertism or extrovertism : Both are terms to categorise your personality. Introverts are usually thinkers , they like to spend time alone and get their energy from spending time with themselves. Extroverts are the opposite , they are talkers and like being in a crowd of people , therefore get energy from spending time with others , in a nutshell.
Everybody is born extrovert and introvert , we all carry extrovert and introvert traits , but it is also common to be dominant in one element . In my case it is introvertism. When I discovered the term, it immediately made sense to me , and over time this hasnÄt changed a bit .
I love spending time alone , it doesn’t mean I feel lonely , it makes me very happy. Even though my mum doesn’t agree with it , my perfect day usually consists of watching movies or videos, reading a good book , getting some school work done such as learning and understanding something new , working out , going for a walk , and maybe talking to a trusty person on the phone .
Now , being an introvert doesn’t mean I naturally hate people , in fact ,I love people , I love to spend some quality time , to go on trips, meet for tea, and have a good talk. But I have come to realise , that when I am forced to spend time with man people for a longer period of time , like on my class trip to Paris , with shared bedrooms and walking in a group of people all day , it absolutely drained the energy out of me .
Another time I’ve experienced the effects introvertism was in class when we talked about the class test we had written and the teacher asked me for the solution on one aspect and I just didn’t know how to answer properly , due to my weak talking skills. I just work better when I have time to think about my response , that’s why my written grades are usually better than my oral ones.
Sometimes indeed , I feel like being an introvert , or better the lack of extrovert traits is a weakness , outside my room , in school or in public , I often feel overwhelmed by the stimulation of my senses . I like to be prepared , I can’t go anywhere without knowing what , where and how things will develop. Indeed I am not a very spontaneous person , it makes me very stressed to be unaware of what’s going on , I always need to have a plan . But is that purely a weakness?
Well , it depends on the situation. But for most of the time , I see it as a strength rather than a weakness. I can understand when people like to stay distant because being a friend of mine can be very frustrating as I get intimidated very quickly and always ned to know what’s going on. But I’m a great listener , and I pay very close attention to how my friends are feeling and never try to cling myself to them or hurt them through my carefully chosen words. I find my best friends to be people that are independent and don’t want to spend every single minute with me . I don’t want to get close with people that I do small talk with , I suck at small talk ,and I don’t really see the point in it. The best friends
The best friends I have , when we don’t see each other for a few weeks , it doesn’t matter , because we don’t loose each other . We usually have the perfect balance between talking and listening and things just flow. It doesn’t work out like that with every friend I have, when they get too close , I often get frightened and am distant from them for a while .
So there it is, always two sides to one story. At the end, though I am usually comfortable to be an introvert , not like I could or want to change anything.
What are things you love about extrovertism or introvertism ? I would love to read your opinion . I hope you have a wonderful day , and if not I hope that everything will turn out okay .
Love , J.