I write to you .
Because things are not exactly easy at the moment.
And the only positive thing I seem to get out of this is life lessons.
But I dont want to feel miserable , I want to be happy.
And this is why I write to you.
I’m currently staring into my fourth week on being an au pair in England. I have figured out a lot of things so far. Food , laundry , kids , how to take the train , how to get drunk and throw up in a taxi , stuff like that.
My hands are cold a lot . My heart hasn’t got the hang of beating at the right pace yet.
I cling to the thought of getting better. It has to get better.